A lot of times I’m skeptical. I admit. And I’m not one for taking chances. But today I went completely out of my element and was surrounded by and doing things I never do. At this point in my life, I had to change something up and give it a shot. Normally it would have sucked, I think. But I had the most fun I’ve had since I can remember. I met so many new people, which is just what I wanted to do. And I just enjoyed the moment. I even got someone out of it who I might just end up really really liking.
For a night, my depression was simply gone. And god damn, I want it to stay that way. 

This medium is useless. Another empty attempt. Perhaps, even unhealthy. Maybe I’ll get rid of it, who knows.

Even if they aren’t the right ones, it’s refreshing to just meet some new people

These titanic waves, that terrorize and sink me, splash against your feet, like puddles on the shore. My lightning bolt is your static shock, my mountain is your stepping stone. I envy you. If I could but walk so calmly, if these storms were but a gentle ride, id find it too. Id be like you. So far gone from resting bone. But while I try to make it through, ill think of what you said to me. I know just what I want to be. My friend, I’ll walk alone.

I’LL TAKE YOUR EYES OUT I’LL KILL YOU I’LL KILL YOU no no no not again please, why can’t I…….I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU never right never okay never enough not like the others NOT SAFE die die die DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE this fucking circle my only light YOU DON’T DESERVE THIS ILL KILL YOU I SWEAR GOD…please?..why………..I don’t deserve this…….I can’t watch this…..why can’t I be right….im fading…….

You will never be enough.
You will never be enough. 
You will never be enough. 
You will never be enough. 
You will never be enough. 
You will never be enough.