March 2012
36 posts
A lot of times I’m skeptical. I admit. And I’m not one for taking chances. But today I went completely out of my element and was surrounded by and doing things I never do. At this point in my life, I had to change something up and give it a shot. Normally it would have sucked, I think. But I had the most fun I’ve had since I can remember. I met so many new people, which is just...
This medium is useless. Another empty attempt. Perhaps, even unhealthy. Maybe I’ll get rid of it, who knows.
Even if they aren’t the right ones, it’s refreshing to just meet some new people
These titanic waves, that terrorize and sink me, splash against your feet, like puddles on the shore. My lightning bolt is your static shock, my mountain is your stepping stone. I envy you. If I could but walk so calmly, if these storms were but a gentle ride, id find it too. Id be like you. So far gone from resting bone. But while I try to make it through, ill think of what you said to me. I know...
I’LL TAKE YOUR EYES OUT I’LL KILL YOU I’LL KILL YOU no no no not again please, why can’t I…….I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU never right never okay never enough not like the others NOT SAFE die die die DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE this fucking circle my only light YOU DON’T DESERVE THIS ILL KILL YOU I SWEAR GOD…please?..why………..I...
You will never be enough. You will never be enough. You will never be enough. You will never be enough. You will never be enough. You will never be enough.
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I don’t need a crutch, or an illusion, or an escape. I don’t need you, either. I won’t chase it, envy it, and never will I rely on it.
Everyone is more fun
Giving up. Going away.
I can’t tell if I enjoy my life right now
You know you’re right
You know you’re right
Sometimes I feel so great about myself . But sometimes I just feel like a total fuck up who makes everything more stressful for everyone. Ehh. I dont know whats right. But right now……I just hate myself for the way I am.
Taking control always feels refreshing
Low, low, low. And to think I once called you close to me. I should have forseen the way you are.
Someone, save me from the spiral. I’m not always strong. I can’t help myself. Id trade anything….
I like it
Im not gonna crack
I miss you
Im not gonna crack
I love you
Im not gonna crack
I killed you
Im not gonna crack…
The real future is me no longer caring.
Sometimes I’m not a very good speller, and god, I hate myself for it. That sentence means more then you think it does.
Sometimes I think how much thought I put into thinking about other’s thoughts
Stress is a side effect of giving a fuck.
I continually exit and reenter the contacts list on my phone, hoping, for some reason, I’ll have more friends when I check it again
It’s easy to be depressed when you’re on the outside looking in. But hey, all I got it time, ya? And something’ll come my way. Why? Because I deserve it. I deserve to be happy. I don’t want to sound cocky, but I’m a good guy. At least I believe so, and that’s truly what matters. I’m not an angel, I’m certainly imperfect, and I got a lot to work on,...
It’s liberating to not be caught up in your bullshit. It’s nice to have someone, sure, but being flung around in an fury of constant problems and insecurities is something I’m not to keen to return to. It’s more stress than it’s worth. And I know now you can’t change someone. So I’m waiting to find someone I don’t have to worry about - relationships...
Let’s ride ‘till the love that’s in your eyes drops to the ground, unravels like a thread
Upon losing your phone, you realize how fuckin weird life is without a phone in the 21st century
Pawns, puppets, instruments. Vanishing toys to further gains. Watching carelessly as innocence is rendered asunder. Carelessly, as they die. As they lose faith. As they cry. Almost smiling. Emotions - plastic facades to conceal ambitions. Friends - a ghostly play, with dreadful malice. Cold, calculating eyes. Eyes that mask, in a laugh, the truth. Blood, fear, hurt, love, nothing. It means...
The words you scribbled on the walls The loss of friends you didn’t have I’ll call you when the time is right Are you in? Or are you out? For them all to know The end of us all
There’s always that person that you just wanna fucking cut.
February 2012
21 posts
The Dead Switch
You can laugh at me all you want. Try to lie to your mind that I’m below you. I will always pity you. You have nothing of the only thing a person needs. And I may be a bastard, and you may hate me for it, but I will have what you do not. What you probably never will have. And all the things in the world you can say will never change that. Because you’re jealous. Because I don’t...
“To the death of fun.”
Hey, im a loser. Got no one. I’m not special, and no one really asks how I’m doing or if I’m okay. I’m not exciting or attractive. But ya know what? It’s good enough for me. It’s good enough right now. I’ve stopped wanting, wanting. I’m just happy with what I have. I’m having a great time. And I don’t hate myself, not anymore. Nor do I...
To the girl who will never know how much I think about her; who doesn’t even know my name
When you can be
Whoever you want to be
Why ever be
Who you really are?
I didn’t have a shitty childhood, so I can’t turn my pain into art.
Wake up in the mornin’, feelin’ like ash ketchum
So we missed our chance - if there’s one thing I’ve got, baby, it’s time
And with a photo finish, I have a valentine after all
Spiraling out…
It still hurts to see you…
Is it arrogant for me not to associate with filth? Some would say. I’d disagree. It’s a moral standard, my dear, and if you don’t live up it to it then I’ll show you the door.
Starting to wish I never met you
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